This is for all my friends that are now no longer with us.
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This song is based on my friends that have committed suicide, overdosed, or just died at a very young age. The first verse are four teenagers that died in a garage in Foster Village (NJ) by carbon monoxide -the two girl were my babysitters and our family closes friends at the time (read Teenage Wasteland). The second is about all the kids that were hit by the train that runs through Bergenfield, what a shame, some were accidents though. The third is just a familiar pain. The last verse and why the song is so long was added in afterward when a friend, next block over, his heart stopped at 27 from all the drugs. There you go, this is one of my favorite songs I have written (I was 21 or so).
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How many does it take to realize this is the end? Maybe one two three or four, carbon to hose, in a car parking garage and. How could nobody notice my break down and this separating begin? Maybe I can't handle this anymore.
Help me through this because I can't breath.
I'm locked in with heaven beneath me.
Everything it hurts I know this pain down in my soul. Everything it drains I know just watch my scars as they grow. Everything - everything. All my friends they come and then go. Gone someplace else I'm too scared to go. Not that I want to be alive. I just don't want to die. It's not me to commit suicide and I can't abide.
Is that right do you feel high? It feels good this is the last time. I shall commit suicide I wish you would believe me. I'd love you id you could help me. Save me I feel the same, watch out for the trains and.
Just treat me like another case -liquid to dust- freebased. Turned me black and into waste I want to free myself into outer space. Blow up this place and get a new face and never come back down. Because it ain't as good the second time around.
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