Monicka FerensDesperate
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Cup 'A Tea
Hitline Archive
Soul Invitation
Eve's Special Reserve
SPIN Radio Desperado


Hi guys. I know I haven't been here for a while, because I was busy with my personal life. Here's the song I wrote centuries ago, but never was able to finish it for several reasons. I did my best, I promise. And I hope you will like it :)

Written, composed by Monicka Ferens.

It's one of those days
When my choices are taking their toll
The bed seems too wide
and the room feels too cold

I feel lost somewhere between heaven and hell
but it's safe, nobody ever finds me there

No one is there to hurt me
No one is there to love me
I'm there all by myself
Separated from love affairs

The more I hide
the easier it's for the lies to kick in
Feed my head with their poison
I live in delusions again

when will I believe that I am deserving of love
Without seeing a lover in every gentle touch?

Oh Lord, I must be really desperate
so much I'm downright disgusted with myself
Man, I'm starting to go mad
is he in love with me or is he a threat?

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know, I never know

Scared of being naive
Scared of being fooled and deceived
Have you ever been this low?
Knowing how much you've been brainwashed?

I pray to God, ''give me my perfect man''
but I'm so confused, his answers I never understand

If you come, I will see you leave
Send me flowers, only thorns I'll receive
The bed will be too narrow
The room colder than usual

Oh Lord, I must be really desperate
It would've been funny if it wasn't this sad
Oh you must be having a ball
Seeing how messed up I am

I do know, I do know, I do know 2x
I do know, I do know, I know it all

this feeling – it comes and goes and comes and goes
it comes and goes and comes and goes
but it always takes control

I am peeking through the crack in the door
I see your shadow
I sense your footsteps on the floor

I'm trying to set free, believe me, I am
but it's never, never enough

Sometimes I feel like
ending up in random arms
But it'd break my heart
thanks, but I'm broken enough


when will I know x
Song Comments

Cup 'A Tea
a confessional extravaganza, with all kinds of sonic treats that draw the listener in, or surprise, or puzzle, or evoke a "yeah" response to adventurous sounds, kinda edgy and wide-rangin' , with a dramatic vocal, an intense atmosphere, however, w catchy pop facets also, a boulaboise of techno-pop-dance-synth, playful and strange...(mysterioso)...

Soul Invitation
this song got joy, the saucy rhythms, with swing (like how the piano pans right out of the gate) and the neat backing vocals, and bold sonics, fresh sounds, what a unique sonic experience, w strange stagey chord changes, theatrical and gritty, vulnerable and masterful, whispery and shout-y, a mystery and a cacophony, gotta love it...

one of IMPNATIONS iconic women singers who can do it up right, such an unusual song with interesting transitions and chord change ups and lyrically brilliant, what is too cool are the quiet soft parts , its a a brilliant combination of jazz pop with a bit of hip hop sliced in there and even a touch of a mystical essence that leaves you breathless and in wonderment ,how she'd dude that

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