Father Time
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3/29/2016 8:24:31 AM
I knew this before but it became all too clear yesterday
I kind of struggle thru life, get little victories while bigger problems pile up. I'm not generally a happy camper. My music while it is a lifeforce endeavor is often detached from me, I go weeks without picking up a guitar at times, but when I'm involved I get in a groove. Anyway I've been somewhere sub-happy for months now, finally finished a song to send to Negative Tendencies yesterday. It's a great one, with all I've been through I find myself hopeful that it will change the world as silly as that sounds. But the odd part was, after I finished tracking, right when I started mixing I felt this feeling of utter completeness. Only when I'm excelling musically do I ever feel this. It comes down to this, music is the vehicle that not only is fully representative of my self, it's also the one realm that I actually approach fulfilling the potential of my human abilities, that I really max out on soul and mind issues. It's the best that I have to give, and it puts all the other things I do to get thru my life to shame. Obviously I will feel this way as long as I keep on this train, why is that so hard to do? Anyway I feel like a totally different person than the guy who wrote the last blog here, I'm standing up high on my 2 feet, like some kind of a giant.
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Shoe City Sound
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3/29/2016 11:52:22 AM
I so get what you are saying and when you ask "why is it so hard to do"? It's not hard, but it can be elusive. I know there are artists, writers, painters etc that have an ethic of get up in the morning and do your art every day. But I just don't work that way. And I don't want music to become a chore in any way. I don't want to put that lack of good energy into any tune I do. So if it's not coming to me, I go do something else - agreed, something not as satisfying, but I never want to compromise that perfection that exists at the right times or give less of myself, ever.
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