Father Time
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7/18/2017 12:19:08 AM
Identity crisis, anyone?
I'm starting to feel a lot of discomfort online as the different parts of me conspire to make me feel cornered. My biggest problem is my artist self adheres to free expression of thoughts that come into my head, I do believe in baring my soul. However this does not serve me in several regards. For one, I keep reacting publically if my music doesn't get a fair shake as I see it. If I feel I've made a good record and nobody responds, I say what I'm thinking which is usually angry or pushy. This morning on facebook I called my whole friendlist lame fucks, for instance. Not a good thing to do. Secondly saying what comes into my mind doesn't serve me in my role at IMP cause you'll always have a certain group who want the CEO to be "professional" and what can I say, I'm just far more artist than businessman. Thirdly I have really strong political opinions and those tend to turn off half of everyone in both arenas, my role at IMP and about the product I put out there as an artist. On top of that, my need to express usually ends up costing me friends and even close friends, an example about that is my openness about items like my belief in aliens or my celebrity crushes, which have turned off several people in my life. I put my need to express at highest priority on the list, but it just sabotages everything else, I don't really see a solution to this problem because in my mind if I can't free express I might as well be dead.
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Larree
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7/18/2017 4:46:13 PM
That's how it is sometimes, bro. I devoted a lot of time rehearsing, recording, and producing four records with my old band, Guitar God System, and no one gave a fuck. No one listened. No one cared. The only comment I got was from an asshole who demanded his five minutes back. You gotta learn to not give a fuck!
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