fly on the wall
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6/25/2018 1:43:27 AM
longing for the days..
Had another sadfest for myself tonight and I ended up thinking about the days, oh so long ago, when things were not so serious. When I was in college, living with my girlfriend, skipping class without a care, when my first glimpse of daylight was her passing me a bong for the start of another perfect wasted day. oh what I would do now for just one moment when I didn't have the weight of the world pulling me down and out. I was never cut out for family responsibility, I never desired it, never asked for it, I went along with it to please my mate and it turned out to be my demise as a free person, I will never escape it, til I finally see my heartbeat stop and my life drain away, never soon enough.
but once, a long long long long time ago, I lived without a care, now that was living.
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Stoneman
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6/25/2018 3:35:12 PM
Cheer up man, trust me, it gets better. I remember when I was young and spry. I often worked three jobs and slept 3 or 4 hours a day. yes, it was exasperating and hard. I felt the pressure of having the responsibility of family weighing me down. But I stood up regardless and I worked until I could not work anymore. Literally, after 33 years of that shit I walked in from a graveyard shift one morning in 2003 and fell out from a stroke. I was paralyzed for several days but it all began to come back and I pushed it further by getting up early every morning and walking the hallway until they made me get back in bed. Stupid doctor tried to tell me I would never walk again. I made that fucker look stupid. I get up and walk 5 miles every morning before the Sun comes up now. But yeah, you are dealing with some tough shit right now and it is hard. I get that man. But dig this, I retired after the stroke, went back to school to get my recording engineering credentials and for the first time in my life, started doing music full time. I got my life back man. All my responsibilities grew up and went on their way to manage their own lives. My wife and I are having the adventure of our lives now. We party, travel and enjoy each other fully every singe day. The pressure to provide is gone and I am no longer struggling. Just wanted to say this to you so that you would know that it does get easier and better as you get older and more established. Hang in there and know that someday all of your hard work will pay off. Much Respect, Stoneman
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